SUGAR

If only I knew all the words uttered by you were false

I wouldn't have been a fool in love. 

but that's the tricky part, right babe?

enough truth

i was never the first thing on your mind -

but you always were.

you gave me all my demons back

turns out you can be completely fine without me by your side

turns out it makes you so happy 

- your dancing glory, your great company

you must have been waiting for this

this life of no-barred happiness

because I was, after all,

 just a chapter you were waiting to close.

wishful thinking

one day, even if it takes me months,
I'm going to make music out of 
this misery

one day, just like you now,
I'll be happy without
the memory of your company.

when will I stop searching for the whys

why couldn't you just end it honestly?
why couldn't you just stay true to us?
why couldn't you just let me move on
with grace?

sarcasm

you chose no-conversation, no-confrontation

over losing me - 

you are such a 

coward

so is your so-called

friend

who'll 

have

your

back

always

because I never did

bitter orange

everything changed once you stepped off that airplane
with your grand plans and your ( real )best friend
you hardly looked back twice
and you blew my head off with a bullet

future

I wanted to be your everything
but turns out you had other plans

best friend

It's sad how you forgot forgo fucked with
everything that was ours
and proved to me that you
never really cared

clearly not

You said I was your home
But you turned me away at the door