Ageing is a difficult process and I didn't even know when it slowly crept up my neck and entered my brain cells.
This year has been crazy. I still can't believe it's over. I still can't believe things were so different last year.
Like a storm everything turned upside down, then there was calm, then I saw the light.
Little T is dead, he sailed away with the water. I know he's around, smoking one of his fat doobies. It's just an illusion that he went up in flames. I know you're around. I'm sorry I was rude the last time I met you, but you know.
I'm glad I still have people around me who matter. Then there are some who don't anymore.
I am glad that me and you are awesome friends. I'm glad we know each other inside out. I'm glad you have found someone to be insane with. You are one of the best people ever. And don't change too much.
And I found you, in this strange place, strangely, fit into you like I should have maybe. I promise to be your strength, as you are mine. I promise not to let the world come between us. It's our sky.
I feel closer to the parents than ever before. I think they are the best people on earth. It's not that I don't get annoyed, but still they are rock solid quirky people who brought me up. That must have been quite a lot of effort!
It's been a long trip. Let's see where it all goes from here.
Be good people, and make those resolutions, whether you keep them or not.

"Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees. He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, oh Danny boy. Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold. One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome and a very good criminal. We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars. It was the afternoon of extravagant delight. Danny the daredevil. Candy went missing. The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks. I want to try it your way this time. You came into my life really fast and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender. Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted. This is the business. This, is what we're after. With you inside me comes the hatch of death. And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again. The monster in the pool. We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked. And sometimes I hate you. Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness. You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth. Fly away sun. Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan. A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn. These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too. I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum."